Missing my Father

I wish i was still young, I wish i was only that lil' kid you always give comfort with.

It was a year already that i haven't even seen you smiling, it was a month long already when i haven't heard that long laughing yet soothing voice of yours. Dumb that kind of illness, shit that kind of thing. Why? why of all people living on this whole earth that they come on u alone. Perhaps they have parted on us too, so we can fight for them through all the way. .

Wish i could spend more time with you. But now, how can I..? How can hug you and feel your warmth, how can i kiss you and tell you how much i love you, How can I give you the comfort when you needed it.


It was December 2, 2009, 2:30 pm. What a day for me... It will always a a marked day of the year. I can always feel and hear your sounding breath, seeing your pumping chest fighting for a single breath, closed teary eyes, dried mouth trying to comfort us and telling that everything would be ok.. GOD!! I will remember what you have said.. I promised...
Now i really feel the feeling when losing someone, looking someone you love taking his last breath.. It's a heartbreaking feeling.

Everytime i close my eyes the picture of you taking your last breath always come.
How i wish i have help you, add you another breath, add you another life.
All things will be just a wish for me, forever...

Who will comfort me when i'm down now that u are already gone..?
Who will give me compliments when i have achieve my goal and done a good job...?
Who will encourage me to do and pursue things when i'm feeling i can't do it right...

NOBODY...

How can i make grow..?
How can i start a new life ?
How can i go outside and mingle a gain?

You are my strength...

I need you always...

You And You alone TATAY...

I love you....

Every time i tried to write tear comes one by one, that i can't even make a sentence...
Well, you gave me strength today.
It hurts a lot.. I know u knew it.
Please visit me always in my dreams.. Please hug me always, please give me comfort, please guide me, and please be my savior..


Ti'll we meet again.. LOVE you and kisses...